I broke up with Elina three weeks ago. I shut down, emotionally, after that. Ten days after the breakup, I woke up and realized what I had done. And I realized, just like always before, I had fled the battlefield. Only to secure my own safety. And that's okay at some point, sure. But on another it's not at all okay. Because for the first time in my adult life, I felt the battle was worth it, even if it meant I'd not make it. So I tried to call her, I tried to write to her via Facebook, I even sent an actual letter. The response I got was nothing of what I expected. I poured my heart out, begged, pleaded. She told me to stop thinking it was al